Christmas Spirit.????????

It's been a busy month, so busy that my brain is scrambled and I've had too much going on to think enough to write.
My best friend, the one that's been thru too much, so much that geez, she does not need nore diserve anymore but her poor baby was born, with things wrong. No baby should be born with things wrong, let alone possibly needing a new heart at 3 months old. That's right, 3 months.
My heart aches so bad, I can't write, I can't find my words anymore. I hate that I can't do anything, fix something, or do something to help. Kills me.
On top of all the rest..
this is all I have right now.

Holey Cow, It's December!

Wow, how did a whole month sneak by? I don't get it, as soon as I feel like I am on track and catching up, BAM it's a whole new month. I started getting T all set up in a new size (of course) and mid way thru she grew out of the 18 month (Finally) and is now partially going into 24 months, do I suck it up and just get rid of all of the 18 month and move into clothes that are too big? Naa.. that would make my life too easy. We are moving out of the things I know she's grown out of and have the empty diaper box behind the chair for anything that comes out of the closet that wont/shouldn't go back in.
Is there an easier way? I would love to know!

We had thanksgiving at my mothers, with a small trip to the inlaws for the check in. Long story short, there's so much going on that I can't talk about in my blog that imagine this is at least another two pages... I know you get it.

I am prepping for Christmas now, we are going to get our tree next weekend, I wonder to myself which is better, to have a real tree that dies by January and we have to recycle or something with that one, or go fake and add to the addition of plastic? Sigh... we go real every year, we end up mulching with the needles and branches and the stem? stalk? of the tree(s) are in our garage and I am not sure what that man is planning for them, but it does make me feel less bad that we are working with them.

The tupperware has helped with presents, I am going to have a last cash and carry party before the end of the year, it was going to be this next weekend but that's gone a bust becuase my shippment is late. (sigh) But that is A-ok, we'll go for the weekend after and do just as well.

I've lost another reader... hmm, oh well, I have to say I've not been working hard enough at writing to keep them. Sad none the less but fairwell... I did start this blog for me and want to make sure I continue it that way. I do have plans for 2010 and it's shockingly vain. 2010 is the year of working on me. Scarry, not that my family suffers but I've got the mind set of if I can't take care of me, how can I take care of them as needed. (Airplane rules apply)

So here's my change for 2010 resolutions
1. Make myself healthy, this means weight control, exercise and mentaly.
2. (also known as 1A.) Work on eating better, real food, less crap, and a minimal amount of fast food, I don't want to say none becuase that's just waiting to ruin that.
3. (also known as 1B.) Exercise, more regularly, more activity, more for me, including the time to do it. This does not restrict Wii, treadmills, going for early evening walks, working out at lunch, etc.
4. (also known as 1C.) Making time for me. I want to have a me night at least every other week, on a week night, work later, possibly work out after work, grocery shopping? any other items that I need to get done. This also makes daddy/daughter time.
5. Sew more, work on finishing projects that I have going on without starting new.
6. Clean more effectivly, I am thinking I may take an organizing class at the local college for new ideas on what to do better.
7. ............pending..........
8. .............pending..........
9. .............pending..........
10. ...........pending..........

That's as far as I've gotten so far. I have a few things I am sure I will come up with before the end of the year.

That's all I've got for now.

I love what Turkey Cookies is doing... right now...

Right Now, I am:

watching... an amazing amount of water, in the fall, with leaves everywhere, on the trees and the ground spreading it's rainbow of colors before the winter.

smelling... apples, ready for baking, cakes and candies ready for Halloween and cookies this weekend, ready to travel.

reading... trying to read Firefly lane, knowing it is sad and teary, I cannot bring myself to keep going.

enjoying... my hard work with making a Halloween costume!!

listening... more NPR than normal

knitting... nope, I want to pick it back up for winter

drinking... pumpkin lattes

wanting... make a few handmade holiday gifts

embracing... the love of my family in these rough times

I never promised you a rose garden...

I beg your pardon????? I understand full use of kleenex, of needing them of using them. On the other hand, I don't claim to be green. I try, I fail, I try again but I don't put it on my blog as my namesake as my effort.... this really ticks me off, I liked Betz White, I feel as if she's sold out... Kleenex?? Really???

Upside-Down Pear Gingerbread Recipe

Upside-Down Pear Gingerbread Recipe

This is a recipe I found on the parents site, it sounds so good and wintery and perfect for Thanksgiving/Christmasy!

Homemade Candy Corn

Homemade Candy Corn

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I am not sure...

I am not sure if I could love this blog anymore.. It's such a great great thing for so many.



I am not sure if I have the time to make the things they make but I love this quilt.

I am not sure how much more madness I can handle in my life.

I am not sure what we are going to do for Christmas this year.

I am not sure if I am going to keep selling Tupperare, depends on how Melissa's party goes.

I am not sure if I believe in the whole "everything comes in 3's" but we've had 2 deaths, and I am not sure how long that lasts, if there's a time limit but I hate that.

I am not sure why we got cable, well satalite, but still, I am not exactly sure, but the people love it.

I am not sure why I LOVE Ace of Cakes but it's an addiction, I mean if there were a mid week I may take off work to watch it... ALONE!!!

I am not sure if anyone else knows that my kid is the cutest on earth, but she should be napping right now and is singing a song about jump(ing) and "ma" which makes it better.

I am not sure I have much more to say now... oh ya.
Prayers/positive energy/thoughts/ love for my neighbors who lost their grand/father/in-law. Prayers for a friend who found out she's pregnant with conjoined twins, for those I know in messy divorces, and any one else you can think of that needs it.

WARNING... possibly too pittiful to watch!! WARNING!!

we are trying to instill good manors and behaviors at home... Now that T is starting to talk, here is where we are now...



*she says "help, help please!"
I thought she wanted the cookies I thought I hid, but she wanted the really annoying hammer... I thought I hid.

I wanna I wanna I wanna

I wanna make my own Luna bars from here and I wanna make my own CLIF bars from here and with all our apples I am going to make some fruit leather from here

I also want to make some of this colored rice and other projects for under $10 for T so she can play with it.. and make a huge mess I am not sure where yet.

I've yet to finish my pie in a jar. I am having some technical difficulty in the jar department. gulp

City Wide Garage Sale

Today was our citywide garage sale. I love it... I love it every year twice a year when it's here. I love the idea of a bargain, and hunting for that bargain, I used to have a partner but shes not been around so I now go alone. Going alone has some great factors, 1. no sharing :) 2. being able to leave when you want, 3. listening to whatever I want on the radio These are not all bonus items that I really need, but all in all, it's a good time.
I did find some great deals, I didn't get my bagel, I got coffee from starbucks and a pumpkin scone, it was AWESOMEEEE... I am more and more disappointed in Starbucks these days, I can't stand it.
Either or, I got some of the greatest deals before I even left my street.
Unfortunately, my camera is dead so I am going to try to find photo's online to show you. I don't have the vanity above, I have one way older but I can't find a photo of it, but the seat is close to the base of the one above and it's all attached as one. The second thing I got was the baby carrier, but ours is yellow not pink.
So, this is before I even left the subdivision. The most fun for me right now is trying to find a picture of the next item I found without laughing so hard at the other photos I am finding.
We got a cabbage patch kid. Shes normal, brown hair red and blue outfit. Cute... got a few other things.
I wondered around and changed things up a bit on my normal route, so I went to afew horrible sales and then gave up and saw a guy with bikes piled up all over his truck and some toys and furnature and so I walked up and asked him how much this was


I love this truck and it came home as a huge hit!! It was only $10 and a pack of almonds :) that was a bonus, he probably got it for less which is great for him but ten dollars is a great deal all on it's own. I got some other things but here's the excitement of the day..




I love garage sales.......